you would think that as time passes by, things would get easier. that the obvious void of his absence would fade, that i would get "use" to doing things on my own, use to being alone. that the sting of him being away wouldn't pain me as much as it did the day we parted. you would think.
but it hasn't gotten easier. day after day, it's harder. the longing grows stronger, the needing gets needier, the missing turns endless, alone feels lonely, and tears fall more often, more frequently. it's heavy here at home. it's that feeling that you're living day in and day out, but you're not alive. you're not whole.
i.am.not.whole.without.him.
he is my heart, my better half, my soul's mate, my best friend, my truest confidant.
he.is.my.home.
and i'm incomplete without him.
we had no idea what this time apart would look like. but the good Lord has blessed us with a love that knows no bounds. a love so deep it aches. a bond that time and distance can't touch (take that, navy!). it's the truest truth we've ever known.
it's hard, it hurts, to be separated. but i've never felt closer, loved deeper, or been more thankful in my days on this earth, than i am now. and that's a fact.
someday soon, we find out where the navy will send him for C school: camp lejeune in north carolina or camp pendleton here by home. we have this gut feeling that he'll be going to camp lejeune. i know God will send him where He needs him. but i pray, and i hope, and i pray some more that God sees how much we need him here at home.
please Lord, send him home. send him home to me & henry.
