oh my gosh, i'm welling with tears!
i can feel her! just now. for the very first time. *incoherent text to husband*
a couple weeks ago. i thought i had felt her. but then... it started to feel painful. and after some research, and the same feeling on the other side of my lower belly, i came to find it was just the stretching of my uterus (TMI!) i was feeling. i was bummed, i felt shammed!
since 18 weeks i've been supposedly able to feel her. and here i am at 21 weeks, telling the dr yesterday that nope, still nothing. and hubs last night pushing on the bump and waiting to no avail (except gas, haha - TMI!).
but here i am, invoicing away at work. and i feel endless bubbles and movement deep down and i know for certain it's not coming from my stomach. it's really her! it's our love pie. and mommy can feel her.
*tears*
♥!
incredible.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Monday, January 7, 2013
the half-way mark.
yay! i've hit the 20 week bench mark! 20 weeks and 5 days to be exact! my golly time is flying. literally flying! last i recall, summer was still fresh on my skin. i was threading my brows and coloring my hair and waiting desperately for my husband to come home from deployment. and now... now we're in the thick of winter (ha!), husband has been on leave long enough to grow a lumber-jack beard *swoon*, the holiday bustle has ceased, my skin is paler than ever - i miss you vitamin D! our home is accumulating little baby girl goodies and it is absolutely impossible to sleep through the night. funny how much change can come about in a season.
this body of mine is no longer working for me. i'm trying not to cringe when i hear everyday at work how big i am. *arg* yes, thank you, i know i'm huge... news flash! i'm only gonna get bigger. truly, I FEEL LIKE A WHALE, every minute of the day - a whale. i suppose i just didn't realize the whack-job it would do to me mentally; this weight gaining. yes yes, i know i'm growing a human inside me, i know it's a part of the process, i know i'll eventually get my body back. i know these things. but that doesn't mean i still don't have to (quite literally, mind you) adjust to my daily growing self.
everyday is something new to adjust to: getting up off the floor takes considerably more effort, and sometimes a helping hand (henry is getting mighty strong). getting up from squatting down to feed the cat. 652 trips to the restroom a night. okay, that was clearly an exaggeration, but it feels like it. rolling over in bed and sitting at my desk are becoming interesting challenges. middle of the night hunger. pimples! the horrible shooting pain in my tail bone. *adjust adjust adjust*
there's a flip side, there are many perks too. i've never been more spoiled by my boys. the "me" time - i'm taking baths every night, reading in water, soaking my feeties. the magical gas tank - i never stop for gas these days, every time i get in the car, it's all topped off (husband knows it's the little things that continue to steal my heart). the back rubs, these are by far my favorite, sometimes we make a massage train - daddy, me, hens & kitty, it's pretty priceless. i get to pick our meals ;) and i always get the extra piece of bacon at breakfast. and at the top of my list?! they let me sleep in! those two sure do know how to make this mama feel special and taken care of.
i love my baby bump, my sweet adorable reminder of God's creation with every downward glance i take. and i can get all sappy on you about all the thoughts in my head when i think about her. actually, re-reading past posts, i've already done it to ya several times :). everyday feels surreal. in no time at all, there will be a tiny crying baby waking our household in the middle of the night. i sorta can't believe it's really happening, no futuristic talks of babies - but a real one in the making. life is going to forever be different. forever fuller. boggles my mind on a regular basis, she does.
♥
this body of mine is no longer working for me. i'm trying not to cringe when i hear everyday at work how big i am. *arg* yes, thank you, i know i'm huge... news flash! i'm only gonna get bigger. truly, I FEEL LIKE A WHALE, every minute of the day - a whale. i suppose i just didn't realize the whack-job it would do to me mentally; this weight gaining. yes yes, i know i'm growing a human inside me, i know it's a part of the process, i know i'll eventually get my body back. i know these things. but that doesn't mean i still don't have to (quite literally, mind you) adjust to my daily growing self.
everyday is something new to adjust to: getting up off the floor takes considerably more effort, and sometimes a helping hand (henry is getting mighty strong). getting up from squatting down to feed the cat. 652 trips to the restroom a night. okay, that was clearly an exaggeration, but it feels like it. rolling over in bed and sitting at my desk are becoming interesting challenges. middle of the night hunger. pimples! the horrible shooting pain in my tail bone. *adjust adjust adjust*
there's a flip side, there are many perks too. i've never been more spoiled by my boys. the "me" time - i'm taking baths every night, reading in water, soaking my feeties. the magical gas tank - i never stop for gas these days, every time i get in the car, it's all topped off (husband knows it's the little things that continue to steal my heart). the back rubs, these are by far my favorite, sometimes we make a massage train - daddy, me, hens & kitty, it's pretty priceless. i get to pick our meals ;) and i always get the extra piece of bacon at breakfast. and at the top of my list?! they let me sleep in! those two sure do know how to make this mama feel special and taken care of.
♥
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