as of late, i've been moody, tired, boarder-line antagonistic, but mostly matter-of-fact. some would say i've grown a back-bone in the midst of those not so positive qualities. actually, some have said it.
looky here, i'm standing up for... for, things i use to feel pressured to budge on! a rare occasion in the face of a people-pleaser.
as of late, i care less of how my words may be interpreted and more that they finally just make it out of my mouth. i have a voice! i have an objecting opinion! i, no longer, have a problem sharing it (my huge life-long feat).
as of late, i'm looking less outwardly, and more at the balance inside my home; the most important balancing act in my bubble of a world.
as of late, i just don't gave (as much) a damn. there. i said it. mind you, these are things i never should have put much weight into from the get go.
these feelings are new to me. i'm a huge softy! i suspect when this cool exterior has a seat at the foot of a warm winter fire, my "as of late's" will most likely melt and morph into a new "lately" (and possibly another blog?? something with a mushy-gushy feel??).
it's a surge. it's probably also a mixture composed partly with pride (darn you pride). i might look back and say, "wow, that was some soap box i was standing on." i might. or i might finally be seeing straight, with my own two eyes. it's too early to tell.
what i am certain of, is my wear-your-heart-on-your-sleeve self is having a very healthy, over due growth spurt at the ripe age of thirty-one.
it's a surge. it's probably also a mixture composed partly with pride (darn you pride). i might look back and say, "wow, that was some soap box i was standing on." i might. or i might finally be seeing straight, with my own two eyes. it's too early to tell.
what i am certain of, is my wear-your-heart-on-your-sleeve self is having a very healthy, over due growth spurt at the ripe age of thirty-one.
I for one am glad for your newly found back bone.A back bone is necessary in the lives we live, and no one should think they have a right to alter your opinions or way of doing things. If someone needs a handbook to interpret what you are saying then I feel sorry for them. Damn people need a reality check, its all plain and simple. You want happiness, and nothing now will stand in the way of that, nothing. Thats the best attribute of a back bone. Helps you see things straight. Maybe these people you seem to always try to please before should start taking notes....
ReplyDeleteit's been a long time coming. back-bone protects my happiness, my sanity, my judgement... me & my family. no more egg shells for this leading lady, i've walked my fair share, time to walk steady & freely :)
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